buuuuut. If I'm completely honest, it's also one of the first *big dates* we'll pass. I've had our anniversary marked on my calendar all year and after I got pregnant I went through my phone and added the big week markers (14 weeks - end of first trimester! 27 weeks - end of second trimester! 30 weeks - 30 weeks!). After the ultrasound I went back through and deleted many of the reminders...it was my first reaction, get rid of the *normal* reminders for a *normal* pregnancy.
I can't erase this reminder though. It was supposed to be our last anniversary as just the two of us. After this one we were supposed to look forward to them as one of the few yearly "mandatory" date nights...just having time away to talk during a grown up meal out...
It feels a little self indulgent to be sad a year in advance but that's where I am today.
Please keep our appointment on Thursday in your prayers. I am trying to be optimistic about meeting the new doctor but I'm ready to fight at the same time. Please pray that it will be a peaceful appointment for all of us.