Tuesday, July 20, 2010

the first of many...

Tomorrow is our 3rd anniversary. Our wedding was fantastic and we've done a good job celebrating each year. Dave just made a plan tonight for us to celebrate tonight and this weekend - I'm really looking forward to our plans.

buuuuut. If I'm completely honest, it's also one of the first *big dates* we'll pass. I've had our anniversary marked on my calendar all year and after I got pregnant I went through my phone and added the big week markers (14 weeks - end of first trimester! 27 weeks - end of second trimester! 30 weeks - 30 weeks!). After the ultrasound I went back through and deleted many of the reminders...it was my first reaction, get rid of the *normal* reminders for a *normal* pregnancy.

I can't erase this reminder though. It was supposed to be our last anniversary as just the two of us. After this one we were supposed to look forward to them as one of the few yearly "mandatory" date nights...just having time away to talk during a grown up meal out...

It feels a little self indulgent to be sad a year in advance but that's where I am today.

Please keep our appointment on Thursday in your prayers. I am trying to be optimistic about meeting the new doctor but I'm ready to fight at the same time. Please pray that it will be a peaceful appointment for all of us.


  1. Hey, Melissa!

    My cousin, Paul Burkhart, passed your blog along to me and after reading it, I just wanted to post a comment letting you know that you are not alone and that I'll be praying for you!

    Though I did not deliver a baby with anacephaly (sp?), I did give birth to a stillborn baby girl at 24 weeks who was diagnosed at 21 weeks with Trisomy 18. We were encouraged to terminate the pregnancy, but we chose to enjoy every moment we would have with our daughter--we knew, as you know, that God alone numbers our days!

    Praying for you that you will be consistently encourage and held by the Lord, because I've been there and I know that he, a Father who has also lost a child, will be everything you need!

    Alaina Hiatt

    PS--Tiny Purpose is the support ministry that myself and two friends felt led by the Lord to start. Check us out online! Blessings!

  2. Ah, Melis... love you so much! Hope you had a good anniversary, though bittersweet.