it's been a hard day. yesterday was hard - thinking about today.
i know other people talk about how hard this day is but i was not anticipating it.
i am reminded of the lifetime of memories i won't have.
last year i was excited, happy, and not yet feeling sick.
i've been forced to say good bye to that woman who was just one short year ago. i know love at a new depth and wince at the innocence that was ripped from me.
especially on nights like tonight.
"be near me Lord Jesus I ask thee to stay
close by me forever and love me I pray
bless all the dear children in thy tender care
and fit us for Heaven to live with thee there"