Saturday, October 29, 2011

It's complicated...

Some things happened this week that got me all fired up to start blogging again. And now the ideas, the important things I want people to know, and the release of my own anxiety is all tangled up in a tight, pulsing knot.

My life isn't simple*. It is, in fact, quite complicated. But even in the midst of that I am certain of one thing: Jesus. His blood. His grace. His love. I guess that's more than one thing.

And even as I feel that certainty deep within, today I am struggling with the fact that trust now equals foolishness to me. I'm hoping to share more soon but let me suffice it to say that everything that I have trusted in life has let me down. If I'm completely honest, God has even let me down. But somehow, His good in my life has outweighed the disappointment. I wish I could explain it better but I guess that's why they call it a "personal relationship", ya'll gotta get your own to understand.

*and I'm willing to bet yours isn't either.

1 comment:

  1. say no more...I understand, even without the details. love you.